No One Ever Survives
I lock my demons away in the deepest part of my soul and pray you never discover them
They claw and scratch screaming to be released
No one ever survives their wrath
Please love me so i can silence their terror and put them in their final resting place
I hide behind this facade of happiness so you can feel loved and never think of returning to your hell
You have risen from the dark and now I have fallen to mine
Your laughter and success is celebrated with the ones that surround you
You no longer see me and judge me with jaded eyes
I beg of you to listen to my cry and see my struggle as I am crumbling before you
Into a realm where promises of freedom reign and serenity gently glides through the air I begin to walk. An inner peace has begun to dance within my soul and a magic and laughter echoes through my mind finally defeating the demons that once reigned. A stairway appears before me and at the top stands those that have walked before me reaching their hand out and showing me the path to take. I begin to run to you to share this beautiful gift I have found and then remember you are not here and are nowhere to be found. To the outskirts I run to finally find you and ask you to follow me into this realm and you come only to the door, look inside an
No One Ever Survives
I lock my demons away in the deepest part of my soul and pray you never discover them
They claw and scratch screaming to be released
No one ever survives their wrath
Please love me so i can silence their terror and put them in their final resting place
I hide behind this facade of happiness so you can feel loved and never think of returning to your hell
You have risen from the dark and now I have fallen to mine
Your laughter and success is celebrated with the ones that surround you
You no longer see me and judge me with jaded eyes
I beg of you to listen to my cry and see my struggle as I am crumbling before you
I am not,
What you see,
Although you may indeed,
Choose not to believe
I am a fabrication,
Built to make you smile,
Cleverly crafted,
So you don't know that I lie
I am not,
As strong as I seem,
And it is not laughter,
That in my eyes gleams
I am a tale of woe,
And one of sorrow,
So weak that I can't lead,
I can only follow
I am not as whole,
On the inside as out,
I am full of misery,
And so full of doubt
I am nothing more than illusion,
A master of it, I am,
I hope that you don't notice,
I don't expect you to understand
Pieces, big ones and small,
Force me to my knees,
Again and again,
Force me to crawl
Spidery
And in this dark harvest of season
My life has completely lost reason,
For which or against to decide.
All lost in a savage and endless, bleak tide
In sadness and in kindness
In light and in darkness.
In a boat made of hope
I shall sail to tomorrow,
In a winding hurricane
Made of treachery and sorrow.
There's a spear, endless, and colossal spear...
Piercing, slashing though my head.
Starting somewhere in heaven,
Ending somewhere in hell.
Fighting, burning, crying, crashing.
Are the armies within.
In my head they are all thrashing.
On the heaven's and hell's whim.
To be light or to be darkness.
A perpetual array.
It's not merely my choi
i.
send him off at the airport
does he look back at me? i'm sure he does, i
must've not stared hard enough
he thinks i'll wait for him back home. i do.
he comes back, he didn't miss me.
ii.
i steel my heart,
but it keeps melting.
iii.
i have to go, i'm disappearing.
i ask him for help getting to the attic.
i forgot where it was.
i find my suitcase,
empty, but tattered
inside i place
shards of unwashed dishes
and the wrapping paper he sent along
with my birthday present,
back when we still believed in us
my fingers bleed out, so does the case
would i rather lose the baggage?
or keep quiet, drag it out, leave
another day
iv. i chose the lat
I finally built myself a new solid ground
Only for it to break and shatter as the sound
Of shards of my dreams hitting Hell’s floor
Echoes as I fall on top, shards cutting to my core…
I wasn’t okay, or even fine,
Always balancing on the line
Between Life and self-inflicted Death,
Now I’m grasping and gasping every breath…
I don’t know if I can stay for much longer,
I’d need to be so much stronger
If I want to try and continue
To hang on and live for you…
I’m just so stressed and messed up
And can’t seem to sleep or rest enough
To rid myself of the purple seas
Under Blue eyes that
I lock my demons away in the deepest part of my soul and pray you never discover them
They claw and scratch screaming to be released
No one ever survives their wrath
Please love me so i can silence their terror and put them in their final resting place
I hide behind this facade of happiness so you can feel loved and never think of returning to your hell
You have risen from the dark and now I have fallen to mine
Your laughter and success is celebrated with the ones that surround you
You no longer see me and judge me with jaded eyes
I beg of you to listen to my cry and see my struggle as I am crumbling before you
The demons are beginni